Saturday, August 1, 2009.
 /Tuning into paparazi :) Relationships don't get deep to me Never got the whole in love thing And someone can say they love me truly But at the time it didn't mean a thing Mariokart was cancel , dunno first :) See whether my mood ohk thn i go find angela :) ! Staying at home is the worst boring day of my life ! On my phone , and crazybaby text , follow by others :) ! Guess what , her/he wished me HappyBirthdayy !!! *winkwink Haha farrniez sioh . So cute lahz , i told her/him that is nt my birthday today ;o , LOl , Ohk no more details available :) ! Anyway i miss _. Soon , i get t see him on trains :) ! Byez people , I have move on , I'm no longer the childish girl anymore , I learn t grow up & be a bitch , rather than i grow up & love you more. It only pains my heart more . I'm gna end everything today , End the memories , the dates & everything . & in my life there's no sucha thing as happypill . Sorry for my CHILDISH letters , i felt so xiasuey of myself . I wish i could rewind the time , till the day that we haven't meet & i rather we dont meet. To not create misery. Since everything has/have/had happen(ed) , we shall just accept . & i dont want t kept lying t myself, Saying i wna rewind & everything , which i know it's not true , Like the lies i lie t myself , cs i love you too much. I have take things so serious , mayb you're right we aren't fate t be together . But i always ask myself how come we always met . Mayb we are just FATED T BE FRIENDS , & i'm contented :) Sorry for the letters , mayb it will prick you. Mayb it's just an excuse you didnt want letters from me , Dont worry , i wont give you anymore letters . Even if you want , from today onwards , BEG me thn :) . I wont allow my heart t give in again. I wish nothing happen , i wish on that day 070908 i didnt give you my heart . i regret , i wish . These two things are common. & for me is superb common words t use , I told friends , i told alot of ppl , Why does it still apply on me , Why am i also a victim of broken heart? Why is it there's no everlasting love ? Like what i said last time , cs of you , i rather believe in other things than love. Love has no meaning , How does it continue thn ? Let me ask you. T end all these , i rather which it pains my heart , thn you going thru _ . I have alot of mixed feelings these few days , I swear the day when i had severe pain , Mother says sent me t the hospital , you knw what i thought ? I thought of you first , i don't know why . Mayb you just meant so much t me , & i only can stand a side t look at you. I didn't even dare t ask for more , I just wish your eyes will look at me once , I can't feel anything from your eyes , other than Runningaway , Seems you really wna run away from me , It's time i grant you the wish. I wouldn't let anyone knw this pain i'm going thru :) . But i'm posting here , yahz. cs i wna people t know ME , Giving up on happypill . At last i must says , I SWEAR my next post & the continuous , there aren't a name call happypill anymore . Rmb on msn , few weeks ago , You wrote me almost one paragraph of words , I was happy for like 4-6 days . As if i strike 4d , i told everyone , But what did i get ... you told me i was fussy . i'm sorry . y'know why ? I just wanted your attention , Can't you use your common sense , I can ask _ . Why didnt i ask him . why must i ask you . Thru this i can text you , you bother t text me regarding this , I was elated , cs you did care abt me for once . How long can it last ? Just that day . Mayb , i guess i'm stupid , I know your love will never return , & have never will , Let me end w/ these , I LOVE YOU Just a month & 6 days is two years for loving you . i'm sorry i just wanted t rant , gna call bei soon. we will rant tgth |
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