I post twice for today ):

this post i think there is not even a smile inside ):

unhappiness is the title for this post ba..

I sometimes just dont get what he means .

Is like the one you are closest to , is always the one that hurts you the most . (gladys said)

I agree with beiiz , totally .

talk to beiiz a lot of things about AHEMS , and i'm really sad

i cant take it anymore la , why cant he reply how he feels towards me .

I dont get it , is it that hard .

when i get into trouble , or mayb i got some things i am feeling upset abt it , and i needed a person. i look up at the contacts of my phone ,

i tend to look for his name first . but i thought abt it , if i call him so what ? will he be busy ?

will he lend me a listening ears ? we are different schools , have different schedule .

mayb he is too busy , he cant even listen to me and just hang up ?

i am afraid one day it might just happen , and if it really happens . i really dunno what i'm gonna do . i dont know .

i'm afraid of everything .

i dont even know whether i can hold until the veh end .

why must he do that to me .

i just dont get it ,

i just love him , but he just dont understand me .

mayb when i said this , i told myself he's still childish in his mind ,

mayb i am lying to myself or mayb it's real .

i rather it's real so that i'm not lying to myself .

i rather he's still childish in mind but accepted me .

not like i lie to myself and got nothing in the end .

i just dont know how he feels .

i always make up my mind to confronted him and tell him my feelings , but i just cant do it .

he's too cute , i cant shed my tears infront of him , i'm afraid he will blame himself .

i dunno . i felt vex . that's all i can says .

i hope everyday pass , i hope he will accept me one day ,

beiiz ask me , bestf ask me . ssc ask me . why you like this type of guy .

i just answer , i dunno . i just love him .

HAI , i know you come to my blog (:

and i'm veh happy alrd . i know i veh bhp .

but i did the counting , and i knew you would came .

that's why , i hope you read this post and understand me better .

it's like , msn we talk also talk a few things thn speechless .

thn sms , is like rarely talk , nowadays .

and worst still , i lost all your messages . because of my phone , it's like repairing .

i hope you read alrd . you will take the first move again

i hope it's you the one that talks to me like last time

i hope that we wont have the awkward feeling anymore .

i hope you talk to me like last time , when you joke ard with me .

i miss that kind of days .

i really regret that i told you my feelings abt you .

i regretted it , but i know it cant change no matter what.

i miss you badly . really bad ))):